Girmel

There once was a girl

And she was normal 

Then she wasn’t 

And she was brave 

Then she was scared 

But most of all 

She aware 

That THERE

Isn’t a place she should ever step into 

Or she’ll repeat the cycle 

And she’ll 

Be spiteful 

Bc she knows better

So she got back to normal 

Then she had a nightmare 

And she wasn’t normal 

Well it wasn’t a dream 

It was a flashback 

A trigger 

But all the same 

She ran out of brave 

And her fears got bigger 

But she still didn’t go

Bc better did she know 

That if she goes 

She may never come back 

So she wipes her tears 

And conquered her fears 

So she could get back on track 

And she was normal 

Then she wasn’t 

And she started to sense a pattern

A theme 

It’s like a big scheme 

Except for why would anyone 

Bother with little old me 

She was scared 

Plain scared 

And although she knew better 

Unprepared 

And when she got there 

She just stared 

Until she crossed over 

Love Isn't In The Air

A poem borrowed from Jas

I wish I knew what love felt like, you left before I got the chance to understand…

That love was never in the air. You strangled my thoughts and crossed the line, You trashed my heart with no beware…

A warning message could’ve implicated you as my murderer who was in deep despair, you knew all I had were my wings and a prayer…

Portrayed yourself as a angel in disguise, but you never played fair.

As I open my eyes to the new skies above, I realize you were a devil who was trying his best to care.

I wish I knew what love felt like but you left before I could understand…

That love was never in the air. You strangled my thoughts and crossed the line…

You reminded me daily that love was pain and that pain heals with time, but we both knew that was a god damn lie…

The love we had should have been EVOL…

Only then could the tables had been even…

It felt like heaven until it became lethal…

You hurt her and then came to me…

She was the prequel, Me your sequel to a story you never finished…

I call my scars blemishes.

Love isn’t in the air, we both know…

But everytime you looked my way, I’d glow…

You May have strangled my thoughts and crossed the line, but like a rose… I’ll still grow.

Rays & Mounds

You are here 

I point to my heart to make it clear 

But my finger shakes and wavers with fear 

Objects in the mirror may be closer than they appear 

You are a mirror, my mirror 

You keep coming nearer and nearer 

I am not lost but I can’t find myself 

Lost in you and having to remind myself 

It’s not a sure thing 

You love my song but it’s not the one you prefer to sing 

Insurmountable fear 

Rays of sunshine 

Mounds of joy 

Both peppered in 

But I always know in due time it gets dark again 

Thanks for everything but thanks for nothing 

I’m happy in the worst way possible 

Feeling invincible yet knowing I’m stoppable