You ever been underwhelmed ?
It’s slightly worse than overwhelm
Bc there an absence
And not the good kind
Not the hood kind
Sometimes typos make sense
The soul sucking type of deep abyss that lunges you backwards into your childhood and everything you’ve ever tried to ignore…
And what for ?
I saw your eyes and felt your skin
You oozed of love and now you
Don’t want me anymore ?
This that “damn lil mama where ya mans at” type shit
Like there’s options and I’m exercising a couple
But I’d rather quit
All options ain’t viable
All options ain’t good
That’s something that needs understood
Or you’ll just get underwhelmed
And retreat to solitude
Where the line is thin between solace and loneliness and you’re jump roping with it
Into the late night hours
Begging for superpowers to get your through this intense feeling of hopelessness or is it helplessness or is it ..
Fuck I don’t know, does it matter ?
I just hate it
And I can’t escape it
So I talk after hours with God