That could be the poem right there
It’s like I don’t even give a fuck but somehow really care ?
Why’d you leave me ?
You left long before your body was no longer within view
I don’t know if you were ever here honestly
I never told you but your eyes looked crazy that night
When you said you’d kill yourself and me too
That’s when I understood fragility
That’s when I understood secrets
That’s when I understood addiction and mental illness
I was too young to carry your burdens
Ill equipped and out of context
How did you expect me to guide you before I learned long division ?
I never told you but the day you tried to Kill yourself in front us I became a mom
My sisters were mine
because no one else could do it better
I was 9
Who was the first person to break your heart ?
Who made you believe that you had to be so alone ?
I’m more curious than I am angry
I’m more sad than I am curious
I feel more compassion than sadness
I was there for you as much as I could be
But you weren’t there when I needed you
- Your Favorite Kid